Thursday, August 26, 2010
My birthday is coming and I won't cry about it anymore!!!
So my birthday is coming up on September 12th and let me tell you, it is probably one of the most despised days of the year for me!!!
Why?, you ask. I will give you four reasons.
1) I am afraid to grow old, to be old!!!
2) My best friend died when I/we were 21 years old. One of the best things about my birthday, was being older then her for 6 months :)
3) A horrible accident involving my future hubby happened on my birthday in 1999.
4) Celebrating your birthday after 9/11/01 just brings on some pretty yucky memories!!!
BUT....I am done!!! Done wallowing in the sorrows of the past!!!
My friend Pippin has taught me a lesson. She celebrates not only her birthday with excitement, but also the whole month her birthday is in.
So here I go. I am going to be 35 in about 2 weeks and I am embracing it. I am embracing the day and thanking God for putting me on this earth. I am thanking God for placing my life in the hands of my most wonderful Mommy!!! I wonder continually how she played the role of both Mom and Dad, when I can never play my part of simply being a Momma even close to my desires. I am thankful to God for giving me all the experiences in my almost 35 years, so that I can work on being the person He wants me to be and so that I can feel somewhat equipped to manage the job he gave me as wife to my favorite companion in the world and momma to the two best gifts a person could wish for.
To my many friends who have birthdays in September, I ask you to join me. Lets rock 2010 and celebrate September like it has never been celebrated before.